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Hard Days of Winter

“Our task is to say a holy yes to the real things of our lives as they exist.” – Natalie Goldberg

These are my hard days. January has always been a long month with some recurring seasonal depression. The month is a minefield of sentimental dates: the date of my mother’s passing on January 14 and her birthday January 23; the January 25 birthday of my sister who passed 12 years ago; and the anniversary of the loss of a pet. And we all have things we’re struggling with that we don’t share. 

Also, it’s been cold. Really cold. So cold they closed the schools. So cold you could get frostbite in 10-30 minutes. Negative temperatures and wind chills. I’m a southerner living in rural southeast Wisconsin. I’ve generally had a great attitude about winter, but this year the extreme temperatures are making the hard days harder. 

To get I’ve pulled out all my tricks, tools and acts of radical self-care. Here’s what’s currently helping me: 

The days are getting longer and the hard days end with my own birthday on January 29. I always enjoy my birthday and ignore all the negativity about aging. It’s a privilege I celebrate with a holy yes.

Really start living

“At some point in your life, if you’re lucky, you throw practicality to the wind and really start living.”  Erma Bombeck

What would it look like to throw what seems like “practicality” to the wind in your life? Have you already done that in some ways? Try writing more than one scenario. You have options! Reviewing the possibilities can also lead to appreciating the practical in your life.

Our Daily Art

“We may regret our circumstances – and no doubt many of us should. But the way toward a fuller life in the arts must come by way of each person’s daily experience.”

– William Stafford

Writing prompt:

Where is the art or creativity in your daily experience? Where is the joy? Can you see a way to create more room for art and joy in everyday life? What would that look like?

Dancing a “Good Life”

In the photo I’m nine years old and wearing one of my favorite recital costumes from dance class. I keep it on my fridge to remind me of the pleasure I get from dancing and the confident joy of my younger self. 

Currently both my writing voice and my physical fitness level are wobbly. I’m out of shape. My current writing project is shifting and nowhere near ready to share publicly. I’d like to connect more around writing, but I haven’t been writing anything I could share. 

While writing morning pages recently, I had a big epiphany and remembered that it’s simple. I do what I love and write about it. My current passion is dance and fitness in general. So I’ll be sharing my journey. 

In a nice moment of synchronicity, on the same day as my epiphany, my morning devotion book shared the affirmation “As I trust myself, I create my perfect body.” And pointed out the power of the journal for “practicing the steps in front of the mirror.”

I’m comforted by returning to dance and other types of fitness. Dancing has been a big part of my life at times and is my preferred movement practice or exercise. Outdoor walks are for meandering and soaking in nature. The treadmill is dreadful unless I’m watching something on my tablet to pass the time – which feels like checking out or disassociating from the exercise. 

I’m currently doing the Nia Technique through the app NiaOnDemand. I choose a routine based on my intuition, energy level and mood. Sometimes I like to revisit a routine I know well or have done before. The body remembers, and I find myself remembering steps even if I’ve only done that routine once. I also don’t pressure myself to finish a routine if I’m feeling tired or distracted. I choose to dance, it’s not a demand I make of myself. 

While I’d love to do a live class, there aren’t any Nia classes nearby. To find a Nia teacher near you visit NiaNow.com. Nia combines dance, martial arts and mindfulness. Here’s an official description: 

Nia is based on the intelligent design of the body. Each workout combines mindfulness and dynamic movement – leaving you energized, mentally clear, and emotionally balanced.

Nia workouts combine 52 simple moves with dance arts, martial arts, and healing arts to energize and enliven well-being in 60 minutes – body, mind, emotion, and spirit.

Nia is non-impact, practiced barefoot, and adaptable to individual needs and abilities. Nia classes are taught by licensed Nia teachers and trainers in dozens of countries and languages across the world.

Nia has been a part of my life for over twenty years. I began doing Nia in Charleston, then trained as a teacher there, and taught for a few months in Columbia, SC, before I moved to Austin back in 2007. There were so many great teachers in Austin, and I had a full time job, so I decided to enjoy being a student. 

My childhood was full of dance classes in ballet, tap, jazz and modern dance. My family also square danced. I still recall most of the cheerleading dance routine from the one year in middle school that I was a cheerleader. 

Nia has two slogans I love and hope to emulate: “the Joy of Movement” and “Through Movement We Find Health.” I also like that the word abundance has dance in it. I know the joy of movement will reverberate into other areas of my life. 

Review:

“Good Life” – Dance Break 
Time: 5 minutes
Teacher and choreographer: Ann Christiansen
Music: “Good Life” by Vargo

This five-minute dance break will have you singing “Good Life” all day! I love this routine for the familiar steps and simplicity of the moves. I’m not able to keep up with the cha-cha-cha’s and I honor my body’s current fitness level and skip them. I still get a great dance in and I especially love the dramatic ending move. 

The Freedom of a Personal Writing Practice

In my classes and my personal life, I love writing by hand. While plenty of studies show the value of writing by hand, I also understand the appeal of the efficiency of writing digitally. It feels a little rebellious and very creative to step away from every act being geared toward the profitability drive that capitalism has imposed on all areas of our life. Doodling in margins of gorgeous journals, choosing between favorite pens and pencils, and lingering in the physical sensation of writing by hand grounds me. 

Whatever you call it, let’s go with simply “writing,” and however you do it, – pen and paper or digitally – a personal writing practice works wonders for everyone. It’s a transformative experience no matter what your approach – simply enjoying the process or strengthening your writing skills for projects you’d like to publish, or as a creative outlet to support other endeavors. The powerful effects of stream-of-consciousness, full-on rambling, blathering and unrelated tangents are always amazing. 

Unlike everyday life, where we edit and tweak for politeness, strategic efficiency, space limits and business rules, in a personal writing practice there is the freedom of having no concern for spelling, grammar or transitions to new topics. There’s room for messy ranting, swearing, whining and weeping. It’s also great for boasting, gloating, dreaming big and planning to make the dreams a reality. (Note: you can’t whine too long on paper or you naturally begin to bore yourself and write about possible solutions.)

With the nearly constant bombardment of demands in life and messages and information in our digital world, a few minutes on the page gives you quality time with your own mind and feelings. The conversation with yourself gives you the opportunity to be a patient, listening friend to yourself. It connects you, to you – the most important relationship you’ll ever have, and the one that makes you better at relating to others.

Sometimes writing is a prayer, a meditation, or a negotiation with yourself. Having a little existential crisis? The best place to find yourself is on the page. There’s no better place to work out ideas – safe from critics, doubters and haters.

Putting pen to paper is stepping up and saying yes to the big “I am. I exist.” It’s claiming yourself, your life, your thoughts, your feelings, your power and purpose. It’s more than the very adult sounding “taking responsibility for your life” – it’s an act of radical self-care to honor yourself with the time and effort to really get to know yourself. It’s bravely stepping around our culture’s limiting idea of only some people qualifying for the joy of being a writer or artist, and relegating the rest of humanity to only observing and admiring.

As the pen moves across the page, the topics may range from the mundane to the esoteric. The physical act of writing shifts energy from ruminating thoughts looping over and over to details, emotions, facts, possibilities – words on paper, now more tangible for contemplation and motivation.

I’ve found a positive side effect of a consistent writing practice is better conversations. When I’m not writing regularly, I chit chat more about trivial things, and sometimes feel I’ve wasted opportunities for more meaningful conversations simply because my head isn’t as clear and focused. For me, daily writing gets the negative and petty stuff on the page instead of spreading it around to the people in my life.

After 27 years, I’ve wondered at times if people still need a writing class like mine – especially now with so much of our life being shared on social media. But every time I reach a point where I start to believe that my classes are less relevant, something usually happens that reminds me of the amazing effect of writing in my own life and in my students’ lives. I’ve had former students send me songs that began as a writing exercise in class, email me later to tell me about very real and life-changing epiphanies they had during class or their writing practice that began there… these stories happen often enough that I am steered back to scheduling new classes.

The real beauty, value and purpose of writing, and any art form, is not the final product or the reader’s response. It’s not the branding or the number of readers or attendees or web hits or units sold. It’s the joy of the actual act, even when it feels messy, and the transformation of the writer from the experience. And art will transform you – writing regularly will change your life. That’s why we procrastinate or rush to it, often simultaneously – it’s scary and exciting and shines the light on what we already know: that we must keep evolving. Rapid evolution and radical self-care are really what we all need and what the world needs from us.

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